The things I'll never do....

About two and a half months ago I met someone. She is.... amazing. And I love her. And miracle of miracles, she loves me. Which might seem quick to some people, and slow to others, but we found each other, and that amazes me every day. So for once, I'm not questioning it, I'm just... letting go, and taking things as they come. 

As most things tend to go, especially when it comes to my life, things aren't easy. We're miles apart... hours apart, sometimes it seems like we're worlds apart. And due to complications beyond either of our control, our contact is much more limited than anyone would prefer.... except perhaps those keeping us from each other. But the point is, I've been doing a lot of thinking lately, about her, about me, about my life, my career, and about the people and things that are important to me in my life. Which has led me to this list... a list of things I'll never do. Some of them are geared towards specific people, my girl, my best friend, my grandmother.... they're all here. And so are you.

1.  I will never forget you. 
2.  I will never ignore an email, or a comment, or a phone call.
3.  I will never push you to the side if you need my help.
4.  I will never stop being thankful for the people that read my blog.
5.  I will never stop loving my job.
6.  I will never sleep on the couch when you're angry with me, kick me in your sleep if you have to, but I will never not be by your side when you wake up, as long as I can help it.
7. I will never hate you for believing something different that me.
8. I will never get to tell you I'm sorry.
9. I will never stop learning.
10. I will never grow out of my love of Legos and Action Figures.
11. I will never stop writing.
12. I will never stop reading.
13. I will never stop being myself.
14. I will never be caught unprepared for zombies.
15. I will never willingly wake up before 5 a.m.
16. I will never stop regretting not being there when you died.
17. I will never be straight.
18. I will never tell you I hate you.
19. I will never stop making people laugh.
20. I will never stop being a pervert heart.
21. I will never stop being my Grandfather's grandaughter.
22. I will never stop dreaming of a beach, the sun, and the lake.
23. I will never stop being myself.
24. I will never stop thinking every person on this Earth is beautiful.
25. I will never forget my first Doctor. 
26. I will never stop being thankful for the people I have found in my life.
27. I will never stop loving my friends and my family.
28. I will never stop looking for new friends. 
29. I will never give up on you. 
30. I will never walk away when you need a hand to pull you up.
31. I will never turn away anyone who needs a listening ear, or a shoulder to cry on.
32. I will never ignore someone who feels lost and alone.
33. I will never not be here. 
34. I will never forget the people I loved and lost. 
35. I will never forget those who left before their time. 
36. I will never be normal.
37. I will never dye my hair.
38. I will never give up on the good in people.
39. I will never stop trying to teach my self things.
40. I will never raise my fists against someone except in self defense.
41. I will never give up my love of Science Fiction.
42. I will never stop believing in love.
43. I will never write a three sentence blog.
44. I will never stop learning from the past.
45. I will never take being pain free for granted again.
46. I will never stop trusting people.
47. I will never wear a bikini.
48. I will never understand the world, but I will never stop trying.
49. I will never stop playing my video games.
50. I will never give up on any of you.

That's my list, what's yours? 
Thanks for reading folks.
- J